Friday, February 20, 2004
Hello! It's me, Chon! I'm back to write about what's been going on. Well, I'm over that Valentine's Day stuff. I haven't talked to him in a week now and for some reason I don't care. I haven't called him and he hasn't called me. The things I had for us to do and the things I brought I gave them away. I was thinking the other day and I came to the conclusion that may be I should call him let him know how I feel and then tell him that we should just be apart for a while or try to just be friends from now on. He will have to accept whatever I say at the time cause I am tired of this. I truly feel like a burden has been lifted off my shoulders. I don't even worry much anymore. Maybe because I am really giving up on him and it's taking less time than I thought.
Well, the other day I went to class. I was so, so sleepy cause had to work the night before. After my first class I had a two hour break, so I went in this empty room start studying and then fell deep asleep. I was so sleepy that when it was time for me to go to my next class I couldn't get my self to open my eyes and get up. That night before I had to do a lot of cleaning at work, so that tired me out. Anyway I'm okay. Yesterday I went to class also. It was the same ole' same ole'. I wanted to go to a parade last night, so first I washed my laundry and then Tanisha, Fonda, Wanda, and I went downtown to the parade. I feel like we wasted our time cause one of our friends did not enjoy the parade. Tanisha was mad and upset because the people weren't really throwing anything and she didn't catch anything. I think something was really wrong with her last night. To me she is never in a good mood for anything. I wish she wasn't like that cause I would like for her to get out one day and actually have some fun instead of studying, sleeping, and being upset allday.
I talked to my male friend Melvin yesterday. He's a really sweet person and I enjoy being around him. Melvin has a girlfriend though. She really treated him wrong, but he loves her and chose to stay with her. Last nigth my other friend (Leezie) wanted to come see me, but my friend was tripping, she didn't want to feel bad in her own room so I said forget it and I went to sleep. I woke up in the wee-wee hour of the morning cause I had a dream that my friend was pregnant and that I was late for work and I got fired.
Today, I woke up I went to see my sister in from of Humanities and we walked to the Library together. It feels so good outside today and it's very nice outside. My friends and I are suppose to be going to the park and getting pizza today. I go to work today, but not until like 10p.m so I will be leaving at 9:30 p.m to go to work. I guess I'll spend the weekend at my house and then come back on campus Monday.
I have a lot on my mind right now and I want to talk to Dee, but I don't know what I want to say. I really love him and I would like for us to work things out. My biggest fear every since I got over my first heartbreak was that if I gave someone another chance after a chance; I would end up hurt worst than I was and end up in the same position again. I don't want that. I guess this time I feel a little to hard. I say I don't care, but inside I really do. I miss him a lot and I would love to be next to him right now. When I'm with him I'm myself, but I feel so good. He's the one man that makes me feel so happy and just thinking about him gives my body thrills. The way he holds me, the way he kiss me.................. Just everything.mmmmmmmm...............woo... woo...woo...Well, I got's to go! That's all I want to say right now.
P.S I just received some good news. My friend is not pregnant. YES.....YES.....YES...YESSS.
chon → 11:14 AM
