Friday, February 13, 2004
Hey! Today is a brand new day. I'm still sad about my situation and all. I cried all night long until I went to sleep. My heart is so confused so I maybe I just need some time to think about what I want to do with my situation, but I can't wait for ever to make up my mind. If I need to move on then that's what I want to do. I don't know why I feel like I should forgive for what he has done. I'm not sure if I should end things with him for good or if I should just tell him we should spend some time alone to see what we both want to be with. I know I wanted to be with him and there was nothing in the world that would have made me hurt him. I am faithful to him and he has hurt me so bad this time. I don't understand because once before we broke up for about a couple of weeks so he can think about what he wanted to do and said that he wanted to be with me and no one else. I guess things change and men change too. I wonder sometimes if I should be aggressive towards men cause when I treat them right and give them my all in the relationship I always end up getting my heart broke. :-( . I try to keep myself from crying but every time I stop to think about it. I end up in tears. :-( :-( :-(. I try to be strong and hold my head up, but no one knows what I've been through with this guys. He really means a lot to me. It's even more hurtful because it happened a couple of days before Valentine's Day. We had good plans for the whole day and the whole day it was going to be just the two of us together and alone, with no one to bother us. All the stuff I had planned would have been the first Valentine's Day I spent with some one I love besides my family and friends. I'm into a lot of tears so I have to go now.
chon → 10:38 AM
